Dad wanted to call him Rusty because when Mom first brought him home from the hospital he had an impressive crop of rusty red hair. I kind of liked the name, and still do. It's a real guy's guy name. It's the kind of name that gives a kid an edge before he even starts out and puts him a leg up on the Hermans and the Percys and the Lyles and the Francises and the Normans.
Dad's name was Norman, which was probably a good reason why he voted for Rusty, although most of the people who knew him from the time of his youth called him Whitie or Norm. Only the preacher and his mother and dad called him Norman…well, and Mom, whenever she was pissed off at him. I figure he must have liked the nickname Whitie, since his big brother Bob (not Robert, mind you, but Bobby Junior—why do parents do things like that to their kids?) was known as Red and Dad always looked up to him, so maybe that had a lot to do with the Rusty thing too.
But I guess Rusty kind of smacks of
nickname, like people are going to ask, "What's it short for?" or
"So what's your real name?" Besides, Mom said she thought it was a
dumb name unless it was for a dog. And she didn't want him having a name he was
going to go around hating all his life like she did. (Mom's name was Reba–Reba
Mae, actually–and she was always saying that every time she heard that someone
was called Reba, it turned out to be a bloodhound bitch, or some woman from a
hollow so far back in the hills that it had to have daylight pumped in. I do,
however, recall her being fairly pleased when Nashville star Reba MacIntyre
made the name famous later on.
But, of course, none of that kept her from
naming me Danny – not Daniel, not even Dan – because her mother had always
loved the song Oh Danny Boy, or from
giving me my father's name as a middle name, so that my full name, Danny Norman
Newland ended up having the nyah-nyah-nyah-nyah-nyahah-nyahah quality of
childish taunting. But anyway, Reba Mae nixed Rusty out of hand and with her
usual bent for whimsical criteria decided that a great name would be that of
her favorite TV sports announcer and game show host, Dennis James, who also
advertised for Old Gold cigarettes. It didn't matter that the Jersey-born actor
cum wrestling announcer's real name was Demi James Sposa. Reba Mae thought he
was suave and looked so sophisticated puffing his Old Gold, and she fell in
love with his moniker, so the name stuck.
Now, it wasn't until several days later
when Reba Mae and Whitie actually started saying his name —"Coochi-coochi-coo Dennis, coochi-coo Dennis James, coochi-coochi Denny"—that they realized,
with a histrionic slap to their collective forehead, that people were probably
not going to call him Dennis or Dennis James, but Denny. And this was,
after all, Ohio, where, particularly up on the lake, in places like Toledo,
Akron and Cleveland, people didn't make much of a distinction between their
pronunciation of short E's and short A's (as in "I'm going beck to
Clevelend" or "I live near Ekron"), so Denny and Danny were going
to end up often sounding almost indistinguishable from each other.
This meant that before the poor little kid
was even able to pronounce goo-goo and gah-gah, his given name
had been usurped in deference to his older brother and he was being called by
his middle name. And then, not James either, but Jimmy and later, just plain
Jim.
Of course, from kindergarten on, whenever
roll was called at school it was with "real" names. So in the
classroom little Jimmy quickly became Dennis (Denny, Den). Thus, his friends
and classmates called him Dennis and his family called him Jimmy and the whole
thing must have been really confusing to the little guy. I remember his first
shaky-lettered attempts to print his name. After struggling through the six
letters of his first name, he went to the considerable trouble of learning how to
draw parentheses, and within them he scrawled, somewhat smaller and surely
shakier, (J I M). Little wonder that he occasionally went dyslexic and
turned the S in Dennis or the J in Jim inside out in his head and wrote it bass
ackwards on the wide-lined, light green pages of his spelling workbooks.
Despite the fact that it might have been
easier on his little-boy psyche, however, it was a good thing that Rusty never
stuck, because it wasn't long at all before his prenatal shock of oxide red
hair turn almost as blonde as Daddy Whitie's. I don't know whether it was the
stress of not having a single first name to call his own or whether it was
simply his nature, but if he wasn't born to be a redhead, he was certainly born
with a redhead's temper. That was abundantly apparent from the outset. Never
have I witnessed a more strongly emergent personality prior to the age of one in
anyone else I've ever known. And it just kept getting stronger as he grew.
He was the most cantankerous toddler you could
possibly imagine. Interested in everything from the time he could crawl,
grabbing, touching, pulling and throwing everything in sight and crawling so
fast that he almost moved at the rate of a small dog from one place to another
on all fours. This meant that my beleaguered mother had to have eyes on him all
day long in order to avoid catastrophe. For example, the time he spread the
tines of a metal bobby pin he had found on the floor and plugged it into the electrical
outlet, knocking himself for a loop, severely burning his index and middle
fingers and (fortunately) blowing a fuse. Or the other time that Reba Mae was
ironing in the dining room and cooking in the kitchen at the same time and left
her ironing board for a few seconds to go check on whatever was in the oven.
Jim’s screams brought her running, to find the hot iron on the floor, the cord
in Jim’s hand and his tiny arm severely blistered from forearm to shoulder from
the sizzling iron sliding down it. Indeed, he carried a scar on his shoulder
from that burn for the rest of his life.
Screaming, by the way, was something at
which he truly excelled. He was kinetically hyperactive from the start, and
learned quickly to bow his back, kick his feet and scream bloody murder if he
was picked up or otherwise restrained from doing precisely what he wanted to
do. Screaming, in fact, became his main bargaining chip for getting his way,
since he was nothing if not astute from the very beginning.
He had a scream that was shrill,
incredibly loud and blood-curdlingly persistent. He had powerful lungs and was
fully capable of screaming–not screaming and sobbing, mind you, just plain, ear-splitting,
intolerably high-pitched screaming–for minutes on end, until he was provided
with whatever it was he was screaming for (the toy he had been playing with and
that had fallen out of the playpen, the household item he was told he couldn't
touch, his pacifier, his “little blue blanket”—which he called boo-bukuck—whatever it happened to be).
And he was just as capable of shutting off the screaming mechanism immediately,
no tears, no sobbing, no wind-down, almost as if it were an electric siren with
a switch, the split second that the desired item was placed in his hands.
My parents were really distraught with
this trait of Jim's and asked friends and family members for advice. Coming
from immigrant Scots-Irish and German stock as they did, the most usual tip my mother
and father received was to give the kid a sound spanking. But they seemed to
realize, somehow, that this method not only wouldn't work but might also even
make matters worse. The little guy was headstrong and resilient. And corporal
punishment wasn’t likely to do more than make him madder and shriller.
My father, for his part, seemed to recall
his older brother's having a similar screaming habit when he was a small boy
and my Grandma Alice's having cured him of it forever by once heaving an entire
dishpan full of ice cold water into his face in mid-scream. He had lost his
breath, turned blue and fallen faint to the floor from the shock and my
grandmother had had to whack him smartly on the back to get his respiration
going again, but it had been the last screaming fit he had ever had. By this
point Whitie thought it was worth a try, but Reba Mae felt it was too extreme.
She finally asked Dr. Clyde W. Berry, our
family physician, what he thought and his advice was, "Ignore him. He'll
get tired of screaming after a while if he realizes it won't get him
anywhere."
So my parents tried that for a while and
found it to be less than sage advice when dealing with someone as hyper-active
and willful as little Jimmy. When he realized he was being ignored, he added
new embellishments to his repertoire. First he would scream constantly for
about five minutes, and if that brought no parental reaction, he would lie down
on his stomach on the floor and continue to scream while pounding his fists and
the toes of his shoes on the resounding hardwood. This he would do for another
five-minute interval before still continuing to scream but now with his palms
and toes planted firmly on the floor while slamming his forehead repeatedly with
a sickening thud into the oak-wood grain. This always brought a reaction from Reba
Mae, because the one time that she had ignored him, he had butted the floor
with his forehead until it had knots the size of goose-eggs on it and until his
nose had started to bleed.
But Dr. Berry, a World War II Army
physician and former Lieutenant Colonel, insisted that infants didn't commit
suicide and that Reba Mae should just let Jim pound his head on the floor until
he got tired of doing it. When Reba Mae said that she simply couldn't stand
Jim's screaming, Dr. Berry suggested she lock him out on the porch and let him
scream to his heart's content.
She said that was easy for him to say but
it was another thing to actually do it. Especially since, with as disturbing as
his screaming could be, the neighbors were likely to think he was being beaten
within an inch of his life.
Heartless as the medical advice appeared
to be, however, she did finally take it. And doing so would provide an indirect
solution.
One day when Jim was about four years old,
and in a particularly vile humor over some unattended whim, our mother reached
the end of her tether and locked him out on the screened-in porch of the
rambling old house on the main street of town—which wasn't Main Street but
Auglaize, although there was a Main Street in town, which wasn't the main
street—to which we had recently moved. The raised wood-plank floor of that
porch appeared to have a really satisfying resonance when my infuriated little
brother battered it with his fists, forehead and feet. He became one with the
sound, simply fell into sympathetic vibration with the reverberating porch
floor, and it seemed that he might just go on forever producing that rumbling
din and accompanying it with a singularly crystal-shattering scream that could
be heard a block away...And was.
A delivery man who was passing by on the
busy street in front of our house heard little Jimmy's screams over the noise
of traffic and the sound of his own truck engine. Fearing the child was trapped
or being murdered, he slammed on the brakes, left his truck idling by the curb
and stormed up our driveway to the side door off of the screened-in porch. Jim
was still pounding head, fists and feet on the echoing wood flooring, totally oblivious
to the fact that the man was hammering on the hooked screen door to try and
raise someone's attention.
Finally, over the intensity of the shrill
screaming, the delivery man shouted, "Are you hurt, Sonny!? Are you hurt!?
Obviously taken by surprise, Jim abruptly stopped
screaming, as if his “screaming plug” had just been pulled, sat up cross-legged
on the floor in one swift movement and scowling disapprovingly at the poor
shaken man, yelled, "NO!"
The man stalked back to his truck, shaking
his head and muttering under his breath, and Jim just sat there looking after
him as my mother stood snickering to herself in the kitchen, mortified but
tickled both by the man's reaction and her irascible little boy's response. As
she watched him through the kitchen window, she saw little Jimmy stand up,
brush himself off, then sit back down and start playing with a toy truck that
he had conveniently had with him when he was exiled to the porch. From that day
on, he never again had a screaming tantrum.